As I sat playing with the opening chord pattern of this song, I remember the feeling that I had when I first started seeing Kerrie, my wife.
I had left my ex-wife, and was now with a new person. It was wonderful, but difficult. The familiar was gone, and the though it was exciting to learn a new person, it felt a bit off somehow. Of course, it did. How could it not. Everything my heart was feeling was wonderful, and everything my mind was telling me was not so...
So, I penned the opening line “When I hold you, I know that it’s not right. I know this ain’t the place that I should spend the night.”
I finished writing the verse and knew I had to push into a chorus. When I played the G chord into the chorus, I had a melody, and even an idea. That idea was that I was so tired. But, tired of what?
Then, as I sang the words and melody, “I’m so tired of…” breaking glasses poured right out of me. I knew this was the point and title of the song immediately.
But, what did it mean exactly?
Searching my heart and soul for while, I realized that what I had done for year after year was live a life that was not what I was when I really looked in the mirror. Breaking glasses meant that I had busted out the mirrors image to create a new look, and one that was not me, and that I did it a lot. I had conformed to an image of me that someone else for decades thought I was, or should be, not truly who I am.
I finished the chorus with, “I gotta choose one. Forget the masses. I gotta be done.” I had come to a crossroads.